Pluto's Cave

Pluto Cave

I love this one.

In the cave

Last night i stayed the night over at my friend's house, this morning i woke to a dog staring at me a few inches away from my face with his cute little puppy face. It made me smile, and few hours later i was on the road and was thinking about all the things that i have said in my latest blogs, and it was like a light came on and I realized that I keep waiting for life to happen and everything to fall into place but it won't be starting until I get off my tush.My friend Rebekah, the one that i was talking about earlier (in another blog) didnt wait for life to start she had it togther and picked a career back in highschool and stuck with it.Her journey is allready begining in a few months. I should be looking up to her and be starting my "journey of life" now instead of waiting around for a miracle to show up at my doorstep. I realize now that many others who have had a dream stuck with it and now they are happy with their life.I now know that if i get on my feet and start researching different jobs, God will help me find the right one and also help me have motivation to get the education I will need.

I have been doing some thinking about what Career choices are out there and which one would be a good one for me. I want it to be a job where I can be helping and feel like im making a difference. I keep thinking that police work would be one of those jobs,but ive been told that officers have alot of stress and have to see things that I don't know if i can handle. It's always been in the back of my mind and was something I wanted to be as a kid,but now since I am older I am unsure of it.

Lost on the Road of Life

Someone asked me today why I am not out of the town that I grew up in, and doing adventurous things. I thought about it bu couldnt give them a straight answer. I have my weekly routine of going to work and hanging with the same friends. I feel like i am in a stand still of life and im lost and dont know what i should do for a real job. I dropped out of school because I wasnt doing well and I didnt have the motivation to do it. I wish there was a manual to tell me what the next step of my life is.I am tired of the same thing every time i go to hang with certain friends, they want to go to the bar and hang out or go to a house and party and act stupid. One of my best friends has had a lifetime dream of goin to another country and teaching children english and for her it's coming true in August.I feel like I am feeling sorry for my self but am not. All the dreams that i have had were just aspirations but some of them were impossible and could never come true.

Its been a while since ive posted anything and for that i apologize.In the last few weeks I have been able to hang out with many of my friends,work and also celebrate my 22nd birthday.