Operating class

Its just in! I have a B in my Heavy Equipment Operating class! I am so happy!, I was hoping I got a B and not C and now I am waiting on three other classes.

Last day of actual school

It is finally the last day of a real school day then its finals. I am almost finished i can't believe it. Hopefully today an operating day goes well.

Psalms 23:4

"Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."
When I was younger my parents would have my sister and I memorize verses and this one has helped me in times when I had great fear. I also think of this verse when I am trying to climb mountains that I feel I may never over come. School is coming to an end in seven days and I am about to reach the top of mountain that I thought I would never reach the top and I can not wait until it is over.

Past memories have been taking over my mind the last few days building up to today. My mother would have been sixty-seven today if she was still with us. I hope she would be proud of me and how my life has turned out so far, I know she is watching from above and with me all the time but I miss her so much.

golden fields

As I was driving home today I looked out over a field of oats and grass and saw the wind blowing it sideways then back again. I could see the different shades of the greens and browns in the grass and it took me to a place that my mind goes to relax where I am walking through a field and there is no evil and no snakes. I see my self in shorts, a tang top, hair down and barefooted. I feel happy as I walk through a field of tall golden grass, as I look about I see cows grazing on hills afar. Their is a light breeze and I can feel it through my fingers as the tall oats brush my hand as i stroll up a small slope.I reach the top and a big smile forms on my face as I see my friends and family living and lost ahead sitting at picnic tables eating freshly cooked chicken,home grown corn on the cob and other mountains of foods. They are all happy and there is no pain or suffering.
Thinking of this place brings tears to my eyes because I miss all of them so much.

May 1st!!!

Yay today is May 1st, I am so happy. I counted out how many actual school days are left and their are fourteen days left!!! Then I have fifteen days left of work, I can't believe it is getting so close!!!! Hope everyone has a fantastic day today!!!! :)

Getting anxious

I didn't sleep to well last night I tossed and turned and kept wondering when morning was going to come. My mind was turned off, but my excitement has been put underneath a blanket to keep away the anxiety and stress that will come with it.Last night that excitement couldn't be contained any longer because tomorrow is May 1st and I will have twenty-three more days left of school. I have this excitement that I have not had since I graduated high school! These last eight months while I have been in school has allowed me to find bits and pieces of my self that I didn't know existed. I believe that God has helped me tremendously through it all and I am much a obliged to him for it all.I know that I have a few more weeks left but I am so happy that I am once again about to graduate school!

I saw some movies recently and I have to say that only one out of the four I saw was good and heart touching. It is called "War Horse" its a good movie not to much language or blood but oh such a good horse story. Then I also watched the "Rum Diary, Happy feet, and Contraband". Rum diary was boring and not my taste, for some reason I thought it was supposed to be funny but it wasn't at all. Happy feet was kinda cute but not as good as the first one at all. Contraband did not have enough action for me and needed a better cast and script. It is just not worth watching.

Night dreams

I really hate it when I am sleeping so peacefully but then the dreams start, and they are not just every day oh so happy dreams. It is like I am in so much of a deep sleep that I cannot awake from it. So the only way I can get it out of it is to wait until the very end of the dream to pull myself out of it. Last week I had one that was so vivid and in such a deep sleep it was almost painful to stay in it. Finally after it was over I somehow was able to wake my self up to me shaking and sweating while my mind is racing with fear from the clear video I just lived in. A nightmare of course, caused by Rapid Eye Movement (REM) which is the brain being active as if I were awake. Also rapid breathing and heart rate speed up even more when this happens. I believe my brain pulls things that happened early that day and puts them into a very vivid dream. When I was little I use to have nightmares all the time from just watching a action movie that barely had any gore or killing in it and barely six hours later I am in a full on nightmare with things that my brain used from the movie but only with people who are in my actual life. The dream I had very early this morning was crazy how my inner mind had pulled from a documentary that I was watching last night on wolves living in a closed off zone that has radiation still in the soil in Russia. Some how my mind used that and turned it into a full on war zone with radiation with my family in it. It was stressful how we were on the run from everyone and it never ended until I finally got my self to wake up. Scientist have come up with some conclusions on how the brain works while we are sleeping and also how dreams come to pass but they still don't know enough to actually know why. Only God can answer what they might mean or if they are meant to make us think and change our ways.

Well I have just received an A on my farm machinery midterm and I am very happy with it. I also have only four more weeks of school left. I can barely contain my self I am so happy!!!

new ideas

So my friend has talked me into going on a healthy diet, and to do a workout every day and today is the first day. For breakfast I had 1 egg scrambled with veggies containing: asparagus, broccoli, onions, and parsley. I hope to start feeling better and to build my immune system back up to what it should be.
My birthday went very well I had fun with my friends and family back at home and I am so glad that I spent the money to go home.

Classical Music

I listen to almost everything except maybe opera and out of all the music out there classical music is better than all of it. It soothes and everything that might be bad drifts away. I don't know if this is because I was raised on this genre but it is in my core and I love it. The composers that compose these wonderful enlightening songs that help me through a rough day are huge in my book!

I am so tired of rain. Its depressing

I feel down. My best friend just called me and told me that now they can't come down over spring break. I really  wish i knew if my car was going to take a dump on me or not if i were to go home. I really need a break from here and spring break was going to make that happen, camping on the outskirts with my friends. Oh well now I have to figure something else out.

rainy days

Well my car is getting worse, now I have a blown head gasket, so it's only a matter of time before it blows up. Last night I couldn't sleep at all, I had a hard time falling asleep then tossed and turned the whole night. So after class I came home and took a nap, which felt so nice. I got my schedule today from work for this week and they gave me an extra shift.Whoop whoop!! =) I am going to be needing that money sooner than I think. Spring break is next week and some relaxing but also filling out applications is what it's looking like plus in the middle of the week my friend's are going to come down here.

ugh Monday...

Good Morning! Its Monday and I have an amazing midterm in my hydraulics class. I have studied and I am still studying currently, hopefully I do well.

Full last three days

On Friday I operated all day on the Case 888 excavator for almost seven hours, I had so much fun operating on it. I started out not digging correctly and not coming up with full loads. My teacher showed me how to improve and by lunch time I had dug a fifty foot trench with a smooth bottom and clean sides. After lunch I was even better, while everyone else was being bored I was digging to china and having a blast. =) At the end of the day my teacher said that I had improved the most out of everyone else and I got an applause from all of my classmates. Through out the day my buddy Chris kept telling me I got a friend you have to meet and go on a date with. I was not for it at all but by the end of the day was in such a good mood and wanted to have a change of pace that went for it. Chris is a pretty good judge of character when it comes to setting people up.That night I went on a date and it was not as bad as I thought it would be. Saturday I worked a double shift at the Oakmont. Breakfast was fine but at lunch it was horrible, I screwed up some orders and got the chef  frustrated too. I couldn't wait to get out of their and go home and take a nap and study.

a few days later

I had to stop in from my busy life and drop a note to say that I have diligently not being lazy and handling this challenge better than I thought I would. I have been waking up early and getting to school on time, and I also have just completed all of my homework for the weekend. The only thing that I have left to do is to study like a maniac for my midterm on Monday. The last two days I left directly from school to go work a night shift and today I was asked to work a double shift. I was a little nervous at first because the weekday crew is much faster than the weekend or night crews. So far it hasn't been to bad and I am able to do okay. At first I did not want to work on my only day off from everything so that I could sleep in but all I can think now is how much bigger that paycheck will be to put into savings. Hope you all are having a wonderful day, I am off to my last shift. :)

Day one & two

So far I have been doing a good job not being lazy. On day one I actually did homework on a Friday after school, then i rewarded myself with watching a movie online.It was called the "Machine Gun Preacher" it was based on a true story and it was good. I recomend it if you don't mind some cussing and blood. On Saturday I worked a double shift and went to see my grandma in between shifts. After work I was supposed to go to a friend's house for a barbeque but it was canceled so it was just going to be another boring night but then I got an idea that I wanted to go out and do something.So I made plans to with a friend from school to live the night life that everyone raves about in this town. It was fun but I think I can do without it.

Two week challenge

I decided that I want to change my bad habits and one of my big ones is being lazy. Whether its at work: moving slow,home: putting off homework until the very last moment, or just small things I am lazy about it all. So I am challenging myself to a two week challenge to not be lazy. Every few days I will blog about how I honor my promise and the things I do instead to make myself a better person. 

I promise for two weeks to not be lazy ever and to write about it so that after the two weeks is up I can see what else I can change for the better. Wish me luck and you will be hearing from me tomorrow. =)

Brr it's a little cold outside...

I am finally feeling a little better today which I am very happy for. Today in class it was ridiculous my mind felt like it had been dropped from a high tower and was splattered in pieces on the ground from the immense amount of math that my brain needed to absorb. It was problems like you have this many acres and your tires are this wide and this long how many seeds will it take for the plot. I can't stand word problems most likely because i have never been able to grasp the concept of taking the number from them and putting them into a normal problem. It is very frustrating. On a better note this morning when I went to warm up my car there were ice patterns from raining last night and then I am guessing that it stopped and water froze to my car not in droplets but in sheets with designs in them.

on my sun roof.

Oh It's only MONDAY!!! Aw Man!!!

Today was slow one, of course it is Monday so I guess it is the way it goes normally. I had heavy equipment methods and hydraulics. Hydraulics was the worse. We have been learning about air brakes and i wish i could say that they are simple to learn but they are not at all. :(  Today I saw a rainbow coming into the canyon and as I was getting closer to home I saw that it ended right near the driveway. Super cool. Well I have to get to my homework.

Castle Lake

Today i filled more apps out but then got disconnected from the darn internet. So I felt as if i didn't do something to keep me busy I would go crazy, so I proceeded to do a two hour workout. I don't why some feel that they need to pay money to go to a gym and workout when the outside has so much to offer, like since i didn't have weights I used heavy wet pieces of Oak logs to workout with and it didn't cost me a dime.

Tuesday

Well it is raining and I am highly even more motivated to get applications done. I have already filled and sent off three applications since last night. :)

Happy Friday!!

Oh what a happy day it has been on this lovely Friday. It started out a little bad because I slept through my alarm and was running late but luckily the day got better as time went on. We watched a few videos on excavators and how they worked and how today's industry is using them. It was very interesting since I have never operated one, because last semester everyone was hogging them.Last semester I ran  the backhoe's, bulldozers, and the loaders. I did get to operate a bobcat excavator which is a lot smaller than the regular ones. After lunch we went out to do bucket drills because it was too wet still to go out and dig. :( But one of my buddies taught me how to operate the CAT 312 Excavator. It was so much fun I couldn't contain myself. I realized running that equipment gave me the same thrilling mind set that I had on my first day of operating class last semester. I feel like my mind is back in the game to get through school and move to bigger mountains to conquer.

Last weekend

This last weekend I hung out with a friend from school and did some regular things and some not. We went to a high school basketball game where we didn't know anyone on the team and then later on we went four wheeling with some of his friends. Saturday I worked til two then afterwards I met up with him again and we went and sat at Carls Jr watching all of the rice rockets and souped up cars show off what they had underneath there hoods. We then got bored and he asked if I wanted to go climb buildings which I thought was crazy but I went along with it until I told him that climbing in ugs wasn't going to be fun. So instead we went to an old building that was used to be a Diamond Matches Factory that was closed down in 1959. It was exciting and awesome to see an old building that was originally built in 1909. I wasn't able to get a picture with my phone because it was dark but I found one on the web.

Wow it has been too long since I have posted on here. I passed this last semester with good grades, thankfully. Winter break was filled with relaxation and fun times with friends and family. School starts on this coming monday and I am glad in a way because I really want to get it over with so I can start working and have a schedule. Hopefully I will be able to get a job up north or somewhere where it doesn't rain and get super hot.