Last week some friends and I went down to Cantera loop and took pictures and picked flowers to put in our houses.It turned out to be very fun and refreshing to get out and enjoy the rainy weather we have been having.

Day Off!!!

It's a beautiful morning outside, the wind is blowing and its quite cold.Im super excited for tonite, one of my close friends is having potluck and every one of our closest friends is coming and bringing there boyfriends and food to contribute. I think im goin to make devilded eggs to take, I have never made them before soo i hope that they turn out okay. On wednesday i have a hair appointment to cut my hair and put highlights in it. This is what i want it to look like, lots of layers, shorter bangs and a little bit shorter than this. I have never had my hair this short soo it will be defintly a change.

Pluto's Cave

Pluto Cave

I love this one.

In the cave

Last night i stayed the night over at my friend's house, this morning i woke to a dog staring at me a few inches away from my face with his cute little puppy face. It made me smile, and few hours later i was on the road and was thinking about all the things that i have said in my latest blogs, and it was like a light came on and I realized that I keep waiting for life to happen and everything to fall into place but it won't be starting until I get off my tush.My friend Rebekah, the one that i was talking about earlier (in another blog) didnt wait for life to start she had it togther and picked a career back in highschool and stuck with it.Her journey is allready begining in a few months. I should be looking up to her and be starting my "journey of life" now instead of waiting around for a miracle to show up at my doorstep. I realize now that many others who have had a dream stuck with it and now they are happy with their life.I now know that if i get on my feet and start researching different jobs, God will help me find the right one and also help me have motivation to get the education I will need.

I have been doing some thinking about what Career choices are out there and which one would be a good one for me. I want it to be a job where I can be helping and feel like im making a difference. I keep thinking that police work would be one of those jobs,but ive been told that officers have alot of stress and have to see things that I don't know if i can handle. It's always been in the back of my mind and was something I wanted to be as a kid,but now since I am older I am unsure of it.

Lost on the Road of Life

Someone asked me today why I am not out of the town that I grew up in, and doing adventurous things. I thought about it bu couldnt give them a straight answer. I have my weekly routine of going to work and hanging with the same friends. I feel like i am in a stand still of life and im lost and dont know what i should do for a real job. I dropped out of school because I wasnt doing well and I didnt have the motivation to do it. I wish there was a manual to tell me what the next step of my life is.I am tired of the same thing every time i go to hang with certain friends, they want to go to the bar and hang out or go to a house and party and act stupid. One of my best friends has had a lifetime dream of goin to another country and teaching children english and for her it's coming true in August.I feel like I am feeling sorry for my self but am not. All the dreams that i have had were just aspirations but some of them were impossible and could never come true.